You guys! I was completely overwhelmed by the response to my last post. And also more than a little baffled, which in itself spoke volumes! I had friends from years gone by texting me to see if I was ok, a local mama asking to meet for a coffee and mucho transatlantic love from my Tdot tribe.
Why was I baffled, you ask? Because I thought my post was oozing positivity, I was smiling on the inside at how motivational it was and how self-affirming I’d been!!! Oh how wrong I was. Laughably wrong, in fact! Only today have I had the chance to re-read it and I can totally see why so many of you took it upon yourself to talk me down of my invisible ledge!!!!
Well, a whole month has passed since No Mum’s Land landed and what an incredible month it has been! For possibly the first time in over a decade, I have taken control of [almost] every aspect of my life (my dudes humongous will never fully be in my control, I fear/hope!)
It is almost impossible to change everything all in one go (it’s fooking knackering too, I’ve tried and failed before!) so something had to come first. For me, it was my weight. I’ve been very conscious of my weight gain and started to feel like it was spiralling out of control. I finally admitted to myself that I couldn’t do it on my own (for those that know me well, you’ll understand what a momentous admittance this was for me to make).
I don’t want to diet because I LOVE food [read wine] and I’ll never be able (or willing) to keep it up long term. I needed to change my attitude towards food [read wine] and the World of Slimming seemed to offer the most balanced approach and more importantly, peer support [read public accountability!] It’s not perfect (there’s a little too much promotion of sugar-free alternatives and high sodium foods for my liking) but I am now into my fifth week and really embracing the change. I have significantly cut back on refined sugar (who knew coffee could taste good without it!) and have DRASTICALLY reduced my winesumption.
It has paid off epically and has been an effective catalyst for everything else. My confidence has sky-rocketed and I’ve been motivated to start doing things for myself again. I’ve haphazardly thrown myself into salsa classes (sober, of course!) and taken a good look at the mamas around me only to realise they were friends in the making.
So, to all you beautiful people who cared so much to reach out, THANK YOU. You made me realise my positivity was superficial; but sometimes you have to [unsuccessfully] fake it to make it!
Normal blogging will resume shortly and I apologise for the self-indulgence that has littered The British Maple recently.
- 15,500 ∴ [that’s a loss of 2 Galleons, 10 Sickles and 24 Knuts!]
- Happy and encouraged!
- Approaching the end of my Holistic Core Restore course and progressing to actual real life exercise again!
- Back in my favourite trousers (four pairs of the buggers!)
- Eating healthily and consciously again